about the rooster (1981)

All eyes are on you when you enter a room. You love to attract attention and admiration where ever you are. You like to be organized and keep everything neat. This includes all of your personal items as well as your social life. When it comes to planning or organizing anything, you like to be the boss.

Your intelligence is a much-admired quality. You are a quick thinker, practical and always seem to make due with whatever you have on-hand. It doesn’t take you long to find an answer to a problem. Friends seem to flock to you when they need good advice.

Generally, you are a humble person and find yourself with many friends. But watch your temper! When someone tells you something you don’t want to hear, you have a tendency to blurt out the wrong thing and hurt feelings.

your most compatible signs are the ox or snake..

So, it's either snake or ox, huh? :)

speed of sound

There is a point in your life when you're not sure about what you're doing. This is when you know that if you just follow your heart, you will find a new adventure. You can smell the excitement of this new adventure before it even begins. You're nervous. You want more. You're trying to satisfy your curiousity, though you're not sure what you're gonna get in the end.




How long before I get in
Before it starts before I begin
How long before you decide
Before I know what it feels like
Where to where do I go
If you never tried then you'll never know
How long do I have to climb
Up on the side of this mountain of mine

Look up I look up at night
Planets are moving at the speed of light
Climb up, up in the trees
Every chance that you get
Is a chance you seize
How long am I gonna stand
With my head stuck under the sand
I'll start before I can stop
Before I see things the right way up

[CHORUS:]
All that noise and all that sound
All those places I doth found
And birds go flying at the speed of sound
To show you how it all began
Birds came flying from the underground
If you could see it then you'd understand
Ideas that you'll never find
All the inventors could never design
The buildings that you put up
Japan and China all lit up
The sign that I couldn't read
Or a light that I couldn't see
Some things you have to believe
But others are puzzles puzzling me

[CHORUS]

Oh when you see it then you'll understand

All those signs I knew what they meant
Some things you can invent
Some get made and some get sent

Birds go flying at the speed of sound
To show you how it all began
Birds came flying from the underground
If you could see it then you'd understand
Oh when you see it then you'll understand

(Coldplay - Speed of Sound) JUNE 7!!

we're just ordinary people

wednesday night. still sweet. crash. pink. blue. june. cancer. leo. sick. flyers. saturday. 5 pm. thursday night. phone call at 9:51 pm. the blower's daughter. music. movies. downloading. keyboard. blacklight. alfie. 23 not 26. saturday. good night. 01:07:35.

"We're just ordinary people, we don't know which way to go." (John Legend - Ordinary people)

Dear Diary...

Today, I feel like writing to you rather than just talking. I just wanna say that finally, I can feel myself starting to smile again on the inside after a year of mourning if you know what I mean. A year of pretending hasn't been that easy, though I'm surprise that I survive. It all went by so fast, but I can't complain. Though I don't feel like looking back, I know that I've learned a lot. I've been watching and learning, where I see a lot of pains, tears, lies, hurts, secrets, and hypocrites in my surroundings. Isn't that sad? It's scary. I must say that life's not always easy and ordinary.

Everyday you're thinking about whom should you trust, whom should you be friends with, and whom should you love. You find more downs than ups. You feel like you're in a state of confusion, where you can't get out from this never ending circle. You feel like you're always outside of your comfort zone. You feel like you're screaming inside, but your voice is on mute. You're just pretending to be what you think people want you to be, when they see that you've changed. I'm not a fake, if that's what you're thinking. I was just hiding for a while. For my own good, of course.

But now, I feel like everything's getting better day by day. I'm not hoping too much for anything, but at least I'm starting to build dreams again, step by step.

i'm spoiled...

M. flowers. dinner. love movies. closer. starbucks. the interpreter. sweet. i'm spoiled..can't stop smiling :)

"Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you"
(Why Can't I - Liz Phair)

i love you

"If I love you this much, and I'm not the one for you, then the one for you will be everything I am; and everything I'm not." (unknown)

finding love

Two movies...Alfie and closer.

Jude Law was amazingly gorgeous and sexy. Both stories relate to one purpose. Finding love. Though he ended up with nobody in those movies, he might had learned how to love and find love.

What is love anyway? People said the "i love you" words so many times, which makes the words less and less powerful. I fell in love so many times and I've said the "i love you" words many times. Every time those three words came out from my mouth, it always felt like the first time I've said it. But is that what love really is? If it is, isn't it suppose to stay? Or is that what they called "the right moment" to say those words? I'm confused.

To me, falling in love is easy, but finding true love is hard.


"'I love you', are three words with infinite meanings, but only one feeling." (unknown)


Current playlist:

- The Blower's Daughter: Damien Rice
- Hear You Me: Jimmy Eat World
- Inside of Love: Nada Surf
- Why can't I: Liz Phair
- Look What You've Done: Jet
- This Year's Love: David Gray